Hey everyone!
It's been awhile since I have blogged, yet, a lot has happened and changed in my life.
I'm learning a very valuable lesson about love. Love is not always convenient, many times it isn't. But it is the test of our love that really marks our level of maturation. Maturation and acceptance of others is ultimately a result of self love and acceptance. As such, I feel it necessary to expose some vulnerable areas in my life that perhaps will bless or help encourage others. So, lately, I've been struggling with insecurity and the need for validation; as such, I have put back on some pounds that I released...Folks, weight loss is connected to much more than FOOD...believe that!! I'm not afraid to expose me because I have absolutely nothing to lose...I am not perfect, like everyone else I'm a work in progress. But I recognize the pursuit of purpose and destiny fills a void....without purpose, my heart feels void and no matter who or what I turn too, it is incapable of meeting my need. As much as I've prided myself on being an independent thinker and self reliant, I realize there's some ways in my heart which require cleansing. Recently, I've returned back to understanding that I'm absolutely nothing without Christ. I am not self-sufficient at all; as a matter of fact, God is the SOURCE of all of my strength and sometimes, we get in the way of our progression becoming our own biggest enemy. My security and validation is wrapped up in the ONE who created me and knows all there is to know about me; as I pursue Him, my life becomes complete and my insecurities dissipate...
Just wanna encourage you to believe in yourself...but first believe in the ONE who created you. No matter what, He knows what you need and He knows how to make it happen for you. Last night, I attended a church service and the preacher inspired me to stay on the path I believe God has purposed for me. I don't have to announce who I am anymore because my works will precede me...Also, I don't have to push my way. Lastly, I'm learning that I am not meant for every circle...some circles are just not for me and guess what it's okay. Sometimes, I was born and raised in the church but I despise religion. I believe in personal relationship with Christ and I believe Christ impacts my life and makes the difference. My way of thinking is unconventional to many and I realize going against the grain isn't popular; many times it is frowned upon. I'm realizing more and more God made me uniquely. Sometimes, peer pressure will make you feel bad about who you are but I realize I'm different. Different is good and I realize my uniqueness is a great offering. It's a uniqueness that bridges the gap and brings different types of people together. I feel like I'm been given the unique ability to see good in most people and I strive embrace people right where they are. Well, this isn't popular...many times we cast judgement and lack the empathy necessary to be a blessing to others. People are drawn to authenticity and our love, bottom line. I empathize with others because I am in touch with my idiosyncrasies and shortcomings. I AM NOT PERFECT!
I've never been one to conform or look to others for answers... This is good to some extent and in another sense not so good but God is teaching me how to discern when I'm being difficult and need to comply. Compliance isn't always a bad thing...once more, I am learning it is not necessary to announce myself...I'm letting my works speak. Basically, I guess what I'm saying life is reminding me of the need to let God be my source of security and validation. His love for me is perfect and it doesn't waver. While I may look for love in the wrong places and in imbalanced relationships, He facilitates and meets all of my needs! EVERY NEED - emotional, physical, spiritual, relational and psychological. I don't have to "FIT" in...as long as I realize I'm "FIT" enough for Him that's all that matters. Just wanna encourage you in the same manner. When you stop trying to fit in and just be, God will bring the right people, the right relationships and the right opportunities to you. I'm determined to stay on track with my weight loss and exercise regimen. I'm FIT because HE accepts me just as I am and SO are you! What He created is good and He doesn't make mistakes. People may improperly assess who you are but it's okay because you are FIT enough...there is a strategic place for both you and I in the Earth and God will use man to help us but our security will come as we accept who He has made us to be! It's gravy, baby....
Lending my voice,
Lady J
